All In

At Willow Bend we have a way of saying being totally committed to Christ and that is the term, "All In." (I think it is a Texas Hold'em term, but I wouldn't know, clueless)

Anyway, we were discussing some writings of C.S. Lewis where the topic of "all in" was the focus. In the mix of it was a discussion we started off with concerning questions one of our group members has about Genesis and creation.

As random as that seems what kept going through my mind was I would like to see this person take a class on Genesis, like a Precept class. I thought it would be amazing for her to study the topic in depth like that. She says she has so many questions she is sure that even in a life time they could not be answered, but still she will ask.

In the midst of all this I felt a spark, I remembered the love I have of teaching and the joy I have when I study scripture in depth. I "knew" that "something missing" that was keeping me from being "all in" was teaching the Bible. I want to feel that joy again. It is like a thirst the Lord pointed out to me.

I felt the joy again.

I kept thinking about Ephesians 1:17-23 and how I felt when I laid hold of the idea that we can understand God more in increasing measure and He wants us to.

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.